I've been with my Partner for five years now. I know she loves me very much, as I do her. She was the one that helped me recognize my symptoms of depression and the acting out associated with PTSD. Even after finding a good therapist and getting on meds, I still hurt her with my words and actions. I'm learning little by little how to manage, but fear that she may be so hurt by me that she won't be able to get past it.
See, even though things are getting better, I still have my moods and opinions and whatnot. I believe that she may be misenterpreting my expressing myself, as part of the PTSD. I'm only guessing, though. I know that she's gone through her own things, and doesn't talk about that a lot with me. I notice that she's quiet more often than not, and a lot of times she seems sad. This hurts me, because I want to fix it, and I want us to be happy. I understand that when a person is depressed, only they can turn that around, with support.
My problem is, I don't know if how she feels has something to do with me, or something else. This is hard for me to deal with sometimes, because I tend to blame myself for everything anyway. I don't want to lose her because I can't make everything better. I know I should've probably posted this in another forum, but it's such a mixture of everything, that I thought I'd put it here.
This may be an ongoing thing..just to warn everybody.