The fear I felt when the supervisor walked me into the room that is the work site was just awful. It looked way more high pressure than I had imagined. I have a long history of experiencing extreme anxiety in new work environments, as in unfamiliar social settings. I wouldn't care whether I would like the job or not - only whether or not I could do it. This supervisor who would be training me was very difficult to be around, hard to talk to. The place is creepy. I had placed too much hope in it, so that is why the let down is hard. I have been fired from a number of jobs. There is no explaining the trauma of repeated rejection. I will end up homeless in the state of mind that I'm in. Maybe I have to accept that I may not succeed in avoiding that.