I'm reworking the steps with my new sponsor, and I met with her yesterday to go over what I'd written about step 1 in response to the questions in the NA workbook. It was really hard, but good. It was hard, because while I have no problem admitting that I'm powerless over alcohol, I have a really hard time admitting that my life is unmanageable, and that I'm having trouble coping at the moment. I admitted to her some stuff that I've never told anyone before, and it was ok. She didn't freak out or anything. It was good.

Now I've got to get up the courage to admit my problems to other people and ask for help in the other areas of my life that are out of control and that feels really scary, but I know I need to do it.

So it was good.

But I don't think the poor woman was expecting to be presented with 11 single spaced typed pages. It took us almost 3 hours to get through everything.

Now it's on to step 2, which I know I'm going to have to take slow as I've looked at the questions, and some of them make me really uncomfortable.

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