End of last year I became depressed and the beginning of this year that turned into a mixed episode despite trying to fight it with meds adjustments. The mixed episode became bad enough I checked myself into the hospital, not because I thought I was going to harm myself or someone else but because my P doc and I couldn't get it under control and I didn't know what else to do. It did finally lessen but I have been cycling between ok, depression, and mixed since then. I don't normally cycle like this so this is new to me. I am on my 4th antipsychotic since that epsiode - Seroquel XR, Saphris, Geodon, and now Latuda. I also take Lithium, Topomax, Adderall XR (for add), and Zyprexa (only as needed - side effects prevent me from using this daily) but took those before all this started. I have gone through mixed episodes before (since I have been diagnosed that is what I seem to mostly get).

This time, however, I had something happen that hasn't happened before. My memory was affected. My memory is now horrible. My memory used to be almost photographic, now I am lucky to remember what I did yesterday. I have a harder time remembering what I felt then what I did, which it used to be the memories of feelings were stronger memories. I know its not my meds doing this since the problem has been the same across the four different antipsychotics and the other meds I tooks prior to the episode when I did not have any memory issues. I have read about this happening.

Has anybody had this happen to them? Did anything help get your memory back? Or was it just gone?