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Originally Posted by Warrioress
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And now about the people in my life. My family are alright. My mum is amazing and my dad is okay. I'm comfortable with them, but I never talk about my feelings to any family member. My friends...well...they have the greatest part in making me feel lonely right now. I have two really good friends(I'm going to call them F and Z) both of whom have abusive parents. F separated from her husband yesterday and is currently suffering the aftermaths of a divorce and Z has plans of moving to another town. Now Z is in my karate club too and there is a lot of competition between us despite our friendship. She is usually the winner and she recieves a lot of attention and training tips from our instructor. When she said she's going to leave, I felt lonely and I knew that I will miss her, but there was a also a small snide voice inside my head saying : "One rival down" and that thought makes me feel guilty and hate myself.
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Warrioress, it sounds like the people in your life are causing a lot of stress. I have learned I need to set boundaries. I use this analogy of having a zoo and then when other people stress me out I ask myself is this my monkey or is my zoo too full? Weird I know, but it works for me. If it isn't my monkey I take a step back and let things falls where they may. I played the 'rescuer' too long until I had nothing left for myself. Hope things get better for you.