... I did not look out the window
... I did not call
... I did not wait
... I did not cry
... I did not dwell
... I found things to do
... I hung out with friends and relaxed
... I let peace seep into my bones a little
... I allowed myself to dream of a new beginning
... I started accepting my loss, my grieving, my unfounded guilt, my rage
... I let go... even if just a little... and it did not kill me.

That was yesterday... what will today bring...