Either I really wanna prove i'm 'better' or i just pushed self-destruct...
Stopped seeing my T, stopped my meds and am REFUSING to be bipolar ( if that even makes sense ) scared of ending up in hospital and yet i'm enticed by it. Sick hey? I can't be in denial, i KN0W I'm bp... But i d0nt want to be. Now i w0n't take my medz, CAN'T take my medz no matter what little pep talk i give myself. Do i really wanna destroy myself? And why?? WTF am i even doing. I have NOBODY 2 talk to about this, and even if i could,i wouldn't even kn0w how. I'm so scared of myself right n0w...