You have us to talk to! I know exactly what you're saying. I've been there. I stopped taking meds a few months ago, but I did it at a time when I was feeling reasonably well. I was not in a crisis or anything like it. I just hated being bipolar and I hated having to take meds. Well, I was alright for a while. But now I fear I have a relapse coming up. I'm trying to fight it without professional help, but I'm not sure if I'll manage. Please don't do anything rash