T and I are just starting to explore my SI. It has taken me a long time to get to this point with T.

T knows one of the reasons I use it is to stop the Sui thoughts. The thing is that on two occasions I have gone a bit further than just having thoughts - a practice run I guess. I am absolutely fine right now, but I am ashamed of those times - I was seeing T at the time and never said how bad I was feeling and I am worried that T will be angry with me and lose trust in me.

I want to tell T, but I am scared to. I even wonder as they were in the past whether T will even want to hear about them, maybe I am making a mountain out of a mole hill and they are not important to share.

Just wondered whether anyone else has experience of spilling the beans and being open about these things?