I've just learned about another one of my friends who is pregnant and looking forward to having her baby. I know I should just be happy for her, but right now I'm crying.
It's been one of the main issues I've struggled with for months this year. Ever since I had to undergo gynae surgery early this year, I constantly seem to see pregnant women and women with their kids and I become aware of what I will now never have and it hurts so much. I don't know if I felt better if I had at least a partner, but I find it so difficult to find peace with my situation.
Maybe I should tell myself what I have instead??? Trying to focus on my interests or so?
I don't know; I just know I can't become as desperate as I had been for months since mid-spring again. That was all to a great extent related to these issues.
Has anyone got any suggestions of how I can prevent going really deeply downhill again? I don't want to feel so desperate and like a failure again and I can feel it starting to overwhelm me again.
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