(((Aidan1970)))
What a horrible experience to have suffered

I am sorry to hear that your psych hospital stay involved cruelty beyond words. I wish that I could give you magic answers to help you through the experience.
When I was in the psych hospital as a teenager (about 25 yrs ago), I knew about a few inappropriate relationships and sexual assaults that were occurring right in front of me. At that time of my life, however, I still had a very thick emotional wall built around me. Those things just didn't surprise me back then.
Hearing that events like these are still occurring shakes me up inside. Maybe because I thought that background checks, training, and zero-tolerance policies would weed out all of the bad seeds.
Very gentle hugs sent your way ~ best wishes!