Sorry to hear what you are going through. I know its hard but remember that it is temporary. I know deep down the docs are just trying to do their best with what they have. They don't live in our bodies. They don't live in our lives except at that appt. Hope is what is getting me through. I hope this won't last much longer, I hope I turn out ok, I hope I find stability, I hope. Very corny but it helps to listen to music and write and cry and pray even though I am not religious. Remember the meds are just one aspect. Coping skills, therapy, nutrition and exercise all play a part as well. Hang in there. Keep us updated. This board has been my hope on some days ya know.