I have dissociative identity disorder, which requires pretty specialized therapy. Currently I get therapy with a non-specialized therapist who is trying to educate herself, but the therapy is mostly trying to stuff symptoms rather than learn to deal with them. Now in November I'll move to a new place, and I and my therapist agree that's a good time to switch to a DID specialist. I will move to an institution (I live in an institution now too), which gets paid fro through mandatory insurance in my country. Now the institution gets paid for everything: nursing or support staff, day activities, therapy, etc. If they can't offer the care that I require, they're supposed to hire someone externallly and pay that person. So I told them last month that I'd found a DID therapist, but they bluntly told me they wouldn't be paying for that and that I had to deal with counseling from their own psychologist, who says she has knoweldge of trauma just because she is a psychologist. She (new institution psychologist) went on to say that since I'll have to get used to living in the new place anyway, it's best not to do treatment so even if they did have a specialist or were willing ot pay for one, it would not be best for me. I said I can see why we shouldn't start DID therapy right away, but in the long term I do need it. "You have your life a head of you," she said. Now I am 25 indeed, but I will likely live at that institution for five to ten years if not longer (it's a place wher eyou can essnetially stay for life, but I want to eventually live wiht my husband when he's finished college and I'm ready for more independence). It's not like I can wait that long to get specialized treamtnet for my DID. So I'm really not sure I want to go to that new institution at all. Besides, chances are they won't pay fo rmy blindness-related help (I am blind too), which they have to get externally, too. I am supposed to go to that place because it specializes in autism, but the psychologist warned me that it's quite unquiet and the patients are pretty severely affected there. I can be severe too depending on which of my DID parts is out, but generally I'm manageable due to meds. Not sure what I want from you folks. Just wanting to get this off my chest I guess.