The need to talk is HUGE with me. Not being able to sleep. Feeling like I can do almost anything. Euphoric. Music is just incredible. Lots of energy, lots and lots of that. Starting all kinds of projects. Feeling intellectually superior to most people. All of that over and over again. Going in circles about all my plans. It feels good but this time I went into a bad psychosis. It was terrifying. I though ppl were out to get me even my family. I didn't sleep or eat for 5 days and things went bad fast. I was on a blog talking about some abuse I went through and spent all my time on there stating June 1st. It was a bad manic episode that led me to the hospital. I couldn't stop thinking I have to save these victims and then I ended up thinking they were out to get me too.

Now I just can't go on there. Brings up too much I also have PTSD. So I have to be careful what I spend my time on. If it just reopens that scab why do it, know what I mean. Sorry rambling.