I saw T today. It wasn't as bad as I was expecting.

It was hard. I had to do a chain analysis (a dbt thing), which basically required me to write down the thoughts I was having, body sensations, emotions and actions I did leading up to cutting.

I was having a really hard time with it, because I really couldn't identify what emotion went with some of the thoughts I had.

T helped me realize that some of it was rage, which I never would have even considered given what my picture of rage was in my head.

It makes a lot of sense.

Anyway, that was basically a long way of saying I managed. It's hard, but I managed.