Grouchy is part of my depression or anxiety..or both ..who knows. I get really irritable at times that I dislike myself and can't stand to be around me...unfortunately I am stuck with me......

.Yes as someone wrote some emotions are justified. We still should be able to feel. Some feelings and emotions are justified and we don't want to be flat lined without feeling anything.If we have a bad day...its a bad day probably because it just is. Its not failure.

I have been visiting a neighbor for eight months every nite to watch tv for an hour. I finally, after guilt felt days, told her that I will not be able to do it so much as I have some problems of my own right now. She is a nice lady and 102, but it began to be a job I held for six days a week. I will say I feel so much better now that I am free to have a nite all to myself."To thine own self be true"...Its so hard to follow that...I am rambling here but it was taking a toll on me more then I could have imagined!! I will still go there occasionally now, but not with that rigid schedule. As it is, I see her every day anyway as she always comes over for me to help her with something......

Sorry Elana.....but I wanted to get this out rather then a whole new thread....anyway its about anxiety and my anxiety in having to be responsible for her social needs!!

Feel better!!! Grouchy seems to go with our territory of depression and anxiety!!

Hugs and hugs;