i had to call my new psychiarist a few hrs ago because i just couldnt take anymore how i was going. Ive been SO depressed all day. I could barely get off the couch. Yet, my mind is racing and i feel wound up and severly depressed at the same time if that makes sense!

When i called they had me come in right away and he asked how i was feeling symptom wise and thank god for him, he seemed like he really cared and wanted to fix this.

For now, to hold me over till Monday, he gave me Klonopin which i took 30 min ago. He also switched my emsam transdermal patch from 6mg to 12mg. He said the jump in MG should be fine and his concern is to bring me out of my deep deep low that im in. He also said to take my Lithium He said he'll think it'll work, but if not, theres another med that he can give me a night but only if i really really need it, as it will make me crazyx day now instead of 2. He said theres no way Lithium could be making me so tired with me being on it for only hungry and said i'll probably gain weight. days now. He said it was a placebo effect, that i was scared to what im supposed to be feeling...

So hopefully this calms me down....im so tired of this crazy rollercoaster. I wish i could be just normal, or even stay at hypomania....at least i get stuff done and am motivated