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I have thought people were following me. (Paranoia) I have walked detached from myself feeling in another world, the colors of my surroundings were very vivid (depersonalization/derealization). I have seen people wak onto a porch and then disappear. (hallucination) I have heard voices calling me while home alone only to open the door and see noone. (hallucination) I have had the cable tv transmitter start playing music - 1930s jazz with muted trumpet- and talk to me saying things like "Look at me! Listen to me!" (Hallucinations)

Sometimes I just feel crummy - aggitated and crying and wound up (mixed state). Sometimes I cry for no reason- (mixed state) Sometimes I run and sing at the top of my lungs. (Hypomania) Sometimes I wander for 2 days straight and don't sleep and talk everybody's ears off. (Mania) Sometimes I stand at a balcony and know that I can fly and think about it but stop because if I'm wrong I'll upset the old ladies shopping below. (Mania) Sometimes I have sex with strangers or beg a non-stranger for sex. Sometimes I just am extremely friendly and "touchy feelie" with friends (mania) Once, I suddenly realized the "thread that binds the meaning of my life together". (Uh, dunno what to call this one!) A few times, I saw myself ripping the spines out of people or crushing their skulls- every bit as vivid as real life, but superimposed on real life. I had no control over it. (Horror Movie Hallucinations) Sometimes, when I am in a public place, like a restaurant, the noise level becomes too much. Its no longer a "din". Its every single noise that is being made individually on top of every other noise. It is overwhelming and almost scary and definitely anxiety-producing.