All of this is so scary to me and so out of ordinary. I like things to be logical and in control and right now am feeling so out of control. Like not knowing what I am telling T is session is very frustrating to me, because how am I supposed to get better if I dont even remember what is being said to me. I hate all this. Plus what happened is in the past and I should be over it by now. Why I cant move on is a mystery to me. There are people who have gone through much worse and are doing well, why am I being so weak about trauma. Yeah, so ex hurt me, so what, its over, should be able to move on. Why do I have to feel the feelings and go through it all again? Over and over in nightmares