sometimes I have to drink early in the am just to make it through the day . sometimes I dont drink except every three or so days then I'll drink a whole bottle and go a few days of drinking until I feel bad about it but then stop for a few more days . Ive even gone a week or so without drinking. When I had a psychiatrist he acted like it was a bad problem but with PTSD symptoms all the time I am thinking its not so much that I am addicted but its more like medicine to help with the PTSD symptoms because I can stop when Im not having tons of ptsd symptoms. and I start again when they get more harsh. Like Im not a die hard alcoholic just a situational one . I was trying psychiatry at one point ive since got frustrated with the whole premise of it and quit. The psychiatrist I was seeing was like really freaked about the way I drink at times. But its like how can someone without PTSD really understand how alcohol helps the symptoms , better then the pills he was giving me. I quit the pills because I didnt feel so good on them. I dont see what the difference between a perscription for the symptoms of PTSD that only works a little vs. drinking honestly. I wonder if you have emotional problems if the professionals are just geared to see everything you do as wrong or an illness vs. if I didnt have emotional problems Id just be an average , normal drinker. Does this make sense? Im just frustrated with the whole scene of trying to heall and how.
thanks for listening ,
jasie