I agree with Madisgram that you should print out your posts and take it to the trauma therapist you see on Wednesday. Although you may feel as if you may be wasting this therapist's time, he/she should be the one to make this determination. If the therapist feels that this form of therapy is not appropriate for you, they will discharge future treatment and assist you (if needed) to a more appropriate referral. Having said this, I would also recommend being completely honest during this session so you can receive and/or be directed to the most appropriate treatments for your condition. Although the trauma may not have actually happened to you, the delusions you experienced (if that's what it was) were in fact very real to you and have possibly affected you as if it actually happened. I wish you the best of luck with your journey