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I have felt that way as well, I had thought I had coped through many things and then one really bad thing happened and I really tumbeled and was presented with PTSD. And it is a very troubling issue to address and I cannot blame you for being angry about it, I completely understand the frustration, as I address that too.

But JD is right, you were presented with situations that caused trauma to you and you suppressed emotions and you were on edge and in wait in the situation you are describing in your post.

Your therapy is all about finding out all the things in those events that trigger you emotionally and pinpointing things like certain body language, sounds, wordage, that surround those events that warned you of danger, made you uneasy, challenged you, and kept you in a hypervigillant state. And until you walk through all those triggers and work at consciously overcoming them, it can be troubling. Each time you were triggered and felt unsafe it sent a message to your brain and your body filled with chemicals that are produced by the brain for a heightened response that says defend or run.

That is what you are dealing with, that is what has been unconsciously engrained in you and I am sure that if you were in an abusive relationship there were many messages that devalued you and made you feel incompetent.

It takes a conscious effort to work through it, but it is very important to identify all the triggers and give them less power.

Open Eyes