Thanks, everyone,

I'm feeling very disconnected. I have phone calls in to two different M.D.s; one is my psych. because I need a change of Rx, I'm sure. I haven't heard back from her so I'm feeling abandoned but that's just me. The other is a referring psych. m.d. for a bp. group. On another day, I called his secretary, and I've heard from neither.

Today is a bit better in that I feel a bit less. On the other hand, I'm not sure if overall it's better not to feel. Could be the Abilify kicking in.

C.S. Lewis says it's better to pity oneself than to pity no one at all. :-)

I agree with that, in truth I do. I had lunch with a couple of people yesterday, one of whom I had known years ago. I hadn't remembered her as being as cruel (not to me -- just in general in talking about people) as she seemed yesterday. She asked about someone we had both known, someone who has mental/emotional issues. I told her that I did know that the person had been struggling with many difficulties, although I hadn't seen her in many years either, but the old friend just wanted to talk about how "crazy" and "weird" she was.

It's a sad world. The old friend wanted to be sure started keeping up again. I certainly don't want to. The thought of friends like that is really depressing.