I hope you find something to help you sleep well, sunrise.

Your original post really rings true for me. I needed therapy as soon as I let home and I knew it, but I felt like I couldn't get it. First because I was in college and couldn't have my parents know about it (what happened at home is why I *needed* therapy!); then because I was in a series of jobs that I knew were temporary. I had heard about being refused coverage for preexisting conditions, so I didn't want whatever it was I had to be diagnosed until I was in a solid, long-term position.

I think it's sad that we have to worry about having insurance coverage when we decide to seek help. It's not what the system should be.