You and your childern have already been through a rough situation once do you really want to put them or yourself through that again. I listened to my ex husband telling me for years that he would change. That he would stop all the drinking and the abuse well after 3 years of putting up with it and walking on egg shells, I finally had enough and divorced him. When I first met him he was wonderful, polite and would always put me first and we had a great relationship, almost a fairy tale. Then he began drinking and he turned into a monster, I begged and pleaded with him for years to get help with his drinking, but he wouldn't. That told me that his drinking was more important than our relationship. I think that I stayed with him for so long because I knew the person he could be because he was that person for so many years at the beginning. You have to learn to put yourself first, because it you are not happy than you can never make any one else happy. I know it is hard to put yourself first when you are a mother, but if you don't then your children will never know the real you. Hang in there and be strong for yourself and your children. You deserve so much better.
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