You are not alone.

I had many horrible experiences growing up in a religious family that was very church going. I would be frequently be terrorized by the messages of damnation and hell fire I heard in church as a child.

Still to this day I have atrocious intrusive memories of my religious past that get triggered by being around people that mention the word God or religion. I'm even repulsed by quasi-religious spirituality.

I hope you find some healing as I wish for myself. You can PM me if you like windbound if you like as I wont be revisiting this tread again.