Wow, i havent been on here in a while.
Since last time I posted a lot has happened:

I got drugged and had non-consentual sex.
I lost my virginity.
I started a new college.
I attempted to kill myself again.
I fell back into my old coping mechanisms.

Just generally been a really crap time. Especially since everyone who i counted as my "friends" are leving to go to uni, so I'm even more lonely than I felt before.
I just dont know what to do. I'm really stuck.
And I'm also worried about me being pregnant. I cant have a child. It's not fair. How could a child grow up happy with me as it's mother? I hope that my abdominal pains are just my body messing up. At least thats only affecting myself.

How are you all? I'll be more active again, i promise. xxxxx