I just got back from my pdoc appointment a few minutes ago. I've been a frettin this for awhile now along with everything else going on. Since I was in the hospital March of '05 my pdoc had me on Cymbalta . I stayed on it gave it a good try . This summer I finaly said something to him that I just think it wasnt helping any. He never changed it. I didnt say anything the next month. Then every month after I did. And he never changed it. So The beginning of February I started talking to my therapist and our marraige therapist about what they thought about the other pdoc in the clinic and their suggestion on how to go about "firing " this pdoc. I have constantly been going over the conversation how to do this. I thought it was going ok. But in the end he said to me. You better stick wtih him( meaning the new pdoc) because I may refuse to take you back. And there are no other pdocs in the clinic. Then I will be in trouble. This new pdoc is supposed to be so much more open and easy to talk to . While this one that I had is poker faces and intimidating to me. And I have a very hard time opening up to him. I did this because I felt it was the right thing to do for me. But what if its not? What if I totally messed up here? My therapist and our marraige therapist think the new pdoc will be a good match. So I am going on their guesses that he is the right one. Thanks for listening again.

Hugz~
Beth