I say to myself that I have always seen being very depressed eventually give way to feeling better for awhile. So that will happen again.

Meanwhile, I have to do things that need doing, even though I don't feel like doing them. That's what so many others are doing and I read posts attesting to that. I'm still in the "giving up" mode. I wonder how I got this far. It seems like I'm risking losing everything. Then I wouldn't have to be afraid anymore, if there were nothing to lose.