youngliterati,

Well, I like your second paragraph. Ahhhh I don't know about the first but I wonder if you were going through a hormone growth period. The teenage years are really tough because teens are not children anymore and they often have a hard time adjusting because they are not really adults yet either. It is such a quick moving confusing stage of life. I am certainly glad that you didn't act on your feelings in the first paragraph. Perhaps you were just realizing the magnitude of everything around you compared to just that small one human being that you are. Maybe you have just come to terms with recognizing that. And now your beginning to realize that your one single life means alot to you and you can do a lot.

But you should keep track of your emotions and see what happens. And that can be difficult to do sometimes in your teens because your body is growing and maturing to an adult form and it can be hard to adjust to the changes.

And this time period is hard for both females and males because of thier changing bodies that truely dont reach maturity until early 20's. Females are experiencing a monthly visitor that changes their moods and you need to monitor that as facts are facts women do have mood swings as they ovulate etc.

And young men have their own issues as their testasterone levels are slowly on the rise and they are changing physically quickly also, but to many of them it often feels very awkward and they do go through some awkward stages. And it is hard to look in the mirror and see that changing appearance. After all children do change but they are children and don't really think about body image as much.

So, all I can say is to make sure that you keep track of your feelings and it would be a good time to start a personal journal. And if those dark moods do come back make sure you seek therapy and assistance. Whatever you do, never act on negetive feelings, know they can be resolved.

Open Eyes