Welcome (((((Joblessbum))))--in the front of any phone book is the National Hotline for Domestic Abuse.
It is also posted here on PC--these people are trained to speak to those of us who are going through the fear, hell of Domestic Abuse.
It is a 24 hour hotline. I found a great deal of help there. I have a Permanent Order Of Protection against my ex. Been there. You are stronger than you know

Lizardlady has spoken for me also. If you want to pm me, you are welcome to! hugs-theo