Today I reached my bottom. Not due to legal issues or being kicked out of my home - but because I can no longer look at myself in the mirror and like myself.

In the past when I stopped drinking it was in response to/in support of the people I love.

Today I finally realized that I have to do this for myself because I want to love myself again.

To all of you have posted links and supportive posts in the addiction forum -- I thank you from the bottom of my heart. It has taken a long time for your words to sink in. I have read and read again the links you have provided.

It is so hard to admit that I need help - but I do. Today I finally took action to reach out to someone IRL. I know I am weak and I need someone to hold my hand.

This will be one of the hardest journeys of my life. I hope to come back sometime in the future and tell you all that I am making progress.