I don't think any pdocs or T's will see this as attention seeking. Who would want that attention?

If you could get a chance to be treated by a pdoc who has background in, or is currently involved in, substance use rehab - that might be the expertise you need. Sometimes these docs have a more understanding attitude. They can better appreciate the struggle you face. One of them said to me that success in substance recovery does not mean never having relapses.