Well, I talked to my commanders. They were cool about it, at least up front. They had no problem with me taking the rest of the month off as leave. When I come back they are OK with me doing some office time, but the expectation is that I'm going back on the line...

This is the second time I've had a major breakdown since 2006. I don't really know if I'm up for a third... Although the first time was about two years ago, there were many times in between here and there that I just wanted to shout "I can't do it any more", but I put my head down and kept going forward...

I'm not sure what to do anymore. My wife and I had a bit of an argument... Not really an argument, I knew she was mad, but she also knows I'm in a bad place so she doesn't actually argue with me, so I tried to get her to tell me what was going on with her, but she just said everything was fine... I wish I could be in a place where she could argue with me....

Man... I don't know what to do any more... Even with my own time...