Sleeps, I am sad right now for how you are feeling. I am sorry you feel betrayed by your T. I know he means so much to you. Unfortunately the reality is that you are one client. A special client from what I can tell. I have grown to care deeply and respect you greatly. The rules and the availablity of mental health care is what the issue really is. I can almost imagine him being handcuffed by the rules and the agency he works for. Most places make the Ts sign contracts that they will not do private practice, or that they will not take any clinic clients with them. It's not that he doesn't care. It is a weird relationship we have with these T's. We care so much and we depend on their caring so we can be safe. I wish I could win the lottery and help all of my friends with whatever their need is. I don't know your story but if you have a specific thing like ptsd, rape, whatever there may be a group to offer a grant to pay for therapy.

I am feeling for you. I will be here for you. I wish that I had an answer.

By the way, You do flooring, wiring AND plumbing? How bout a vacation to my great place? Lots of critters for company.

Please feel the love that I am sending you.