I had gotten to the point where I was drinking every night. I drank at least 5 beers and 2 shots every night.

I know that this is alcoholic behavior, but felt like it was not an alcoholic because there were days that I didn't drink.

So, I have decided that I am not going to drink anymore. I have been three days without drinking.

In my case, drinking is a way of running away from stress and depression. So, I am going to not use it as a crutch anymore, and deal with things without it.