You're welcome iamanne. It makes alot of sense to me. sometimes I don't take apart what I am feeling until someone actually needs to know the behind the scenes kind of thing and then I sit down and write as if talking and explaining to them and then I end up seeing the picture of me for myself more clearly. Wierd how that works huh. That old saying "if a friend was going through the same thing what would you tell them" kind of thing. Educating and helping others ends up educating me too. LOL