Thank you to everyone for your advice and support. Lost -- There are people who I work with who know about my problem, but I've honestly kept it very hidden and you're right I am ashamed. The problem I have is I am a teacher and just can't imagine seeing a parent of one of my students at AA. My therapist suggested a closed meeting for professionals. I am three and a half months sober and it is getting easier, but I know I still do need the support.