i dont know what to do. my bf wants to have another child but im not ready and he still wants another one. he isnt forceful but i feel pressured. im not in the right state of mind right now. he doesnt know about my depression anxiety or my horrible past. im scared and i feel alone. i was thinking about going on the pill behind his back but feel the guilt would eat away at me i dont know what to do and i feel so alone i just want to cry or worse SI. if i go on the pill and not tell him then im deceiving him.