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Hey guys,
I am the same. I am 26 and up until the other day I had never had the pleasure of having someone touch me, want to touch me, touch him and also have sort of intercourse. My 1st boyfriend was at 24 and we never had sex or anything. We fooled about ye but I was never wanting sex. My 2nd boyfriend when I was 25 was the exact same. He tried his best to change my mind but to me sex feels and seems dirty to me. I have put it all down to my OCD, the whole bodily contact etc on me. My 3rd boyfriend if you can call him that I never let him touch me sexually.
Then the other night I had a man lie on top of me and we fooled about.... he knew I was a virgin and said he wouldn't force me into anything. We never had sex at all he just pleasured me which I have to admit was nice. Sorry if this is a bit OTT!!
Every since then I have been feeling guilty and a bit freaked out. I have never wanted sex or a boyfriend for that matter. I know some ok most of that comes down to my alck of confidence. Even now I don't want to have sex. In my head/ my imagination yes sex is always there but in real life I am scared and don't want it
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