I still can't deal with this. I just can't. It never stops being sad and I'm just exhausted with chronic grief.

No matter how hard I try to "remember the good times" it hurts WAY too much. I see him laughing or us goofing around and it makes me miss him so much I can't even put it in words. I'm sorry to bring this up. I know it's old.

Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch Ouch