I feel bad because I thought I had friends who turned out not to be friends after all. Why do people say they will be there for you and make you feel that you can get close to them and then hurt you? I have become so guarded and mistrustful, I am so tired of being hurt, ignored, and neglected when all I want to do is be a true friend. I don't impose on anyone, I am a loyal friend and a good person, so why do I get hurt? Is it better to be guarded and a loner? I never thought so, but now I am starting to wonder. I feel like not letting people get close to me ever again. I just don't understand.