Thank you ((((Petunia, Wisewoman, Brian and Myself...and um someone who JUST PMed me but has PM off )))))) thank you all..I am ok don't think I am way messed up or in tears or anything just and confused and *feel played a bit by him* and miss him and just I know you all care and are validationg me and I appreciate it ...still I am all over this continual T lament that never ends cause there can and never will be any closure..I will never and when I say will never you can bet the farm on it see a T again I do not want to see another and well I was just left out in the rain I can go see him when I have the money and all.....and a odd flip side I cannot go into...but...when/should I come into the money I will never have a chance to see him EVER again ..I know, lol I know, I am being my vague self again but he is just needed...missed..cared for and I am just a buncha bills to him I think or feel...And it doesnt matter and maybe it should but that I am smart and pretty and can do many things...I wanna see T and can't I feel like a number....(insert song)