thank sunrise.
That's helpful for me i wanted therapy for a while before even considering meds. And yep agree that therapy would be needed even with meds. I was just thrown off. She is busy i understand but today she was more focused it seemed like. I agreed to see her biweek and i brought up that she mentioned she was swamped but she said it would be ok. Today we actually talked about a treatment plan so That's a good sign. As i told t i would read up and maybe get the book we'll be using so i can get some skills to sink in for me. I think t must had reread my intake or something from last session cause she backed off the whole meds and suggested maybe herbal help i like that better so i will do some research on some and run them by. The pdoc i just want to be sure i'm bipolar i guess i'm even going to try a focus organization for bipolar and see what they say. See it's like my whole family or half of them are bipolar and with me i have past issues with something that i just don't want to go on meds and find out later i shouldn't had. I have felt like t has just agreed with me on mood swings and so forth, i guess i'm stubborn as well. Throu this all i've been like nothings wrong with me and so on as i know many do in my family. But idk she likes my ambition with me starting mood tracking on my own and some other stuff (she likes its also a thing she against me with the whole do i need therapy but as i mentioned today she seemed more focused and we made a plan today). But as i told my boyfriend even if she seems too busy maybe i can get something from her input she may have. i'm trying to stay positive with this thank you though today i also mentioned the other organization and she was like well you could try both us and them didn't feel pushed off today with go go go to them (lol?) i do realise part of my whole upset with it could me getting too emotional or feeling it personal and sorry for that