Today has been better. I saw my T and I went to dbt. I am extremely frustrated with my pdoc though.
I left him a message last week that I stopped taking doxepin because it increased my suicidal thoughts and made me so exhausted I couldn't do anything.
Finally got a call back today, they had to leave a message while I was in DBT.

The message said the med (a tricyclic antidepressant) should not cause worsening suicidal thoughts and I should just go to my appointment on Wednesday.

He did not even address the exhaustion!! I am back to 2-3 hours of sleep a night, but at least I can function the next day. I feel like I'm going to get told it's all in my head.