Hi there, I'm new to this site and basically I joined because I feel like I should. I've had depression since I was 9 years old and I literally feel like I'm grasping my life by my fingernails...I had considered killing myself in the past but deep down I just couldn't do it-I went to therapy when I was 9 and it lasted till I was 17 and supposedly my therapist thought it was time for me to make it out on my own and move on since she thought I had gotten over my depression.

To which is semi true- after I graduated high school and started college my depression seemed to be melting away but now it's come back for me with a vengeance. I don't know what to do I've tried speaking with my friends and family about it and although they show some concern to me it feels like they're only partially listening to me when I tell them my thoughts and feelings and it seriously makes me feel like I'm a burden to them.

It's even harder now because I've transferred to another college recently and I live three hours away from my friends and family and I just feel alone. I've tried making new friends but every time I do so, they don't want anything to do with me! they give me the stink eye as if they can smell the depression off me! I've tried speaking to my family about this and they seem to care but then again...they're only partially listening to me!! I hate being alone, but maybe I should just accept it?