so i got in there room and sat down and didn't notice the letter.than she said something about starting to read it and remembering i made a deal that if i sent her a letter that i would read it.i wouldn't so she got angry and asked for the letter again telling me it is hers and i had no right to keep it once i mailed it to her.i gave it to her and that was it next she is saying my name and don't do this,and again my name and don't do this it isn't right it was like she was yelling at me she kept saying my name and it isn't OK i didn't know what i was doing still don't.than she asked me to put the letter on the table and i think was talking to me about why i wrote this letter and how i cant not talk to her.and that she knows something happens and i cant talk.i don't know all that she said.but than asked for the letter again and i gave it to her and she read it.she talked about trust abd babies and how they are not badi don't believe this.she asked how i was such a good mom to my son because she believes i am and i told her he made it easy because he was an easy baby.i just cant believe her when she talks about babies and trust.she did say that she believes me when i say as a child i didn't trust people she said this made a lot of sense to her.she than asked about my friend and i was able to talk to her about her and than i was able to talk to her a little about how it was when i went to help the mother last year.i haven't been able to talk to her about it.i seem to really open up some.how can i be so closed up and than be able to tell her about some really personal stuff about the mother and my friend and some other stuff.she asked me how i was feeling about what i shared with her.i felt nothing.but i didn't know how i was going to feel later .she started talking about my fear and having flashbacks.but didn't give me any answers as to how to not have this happen.I'm scared to go to sleep.but i was able to talk to her better than i have ever been but she was so angry with me at first.i don't know what happened.so angry about the letter.but she said she cared about me.i don't know if i believe her.I'm confused but i think it will be OK.i actually talked about the mother just a little bit.i don't know how she will be with this but it is strange this whole session was strangei'm scared to sleep