Beth,

I am in agreement, you didn't mess up at all. You don't need a pdoc that you can't talk to. It is as important for them to listen to you as your therapy is. In my case, my psychologist & pdoc work together & know each other personally besides business.

Sounds like your old pdoc isn't anyone you would want to go back to anyway, & if your therapists think that the new one will be a better fit, they probably know the pdocs & definately know you through the therapy. Trust their judgment & you will be much better off having a pdoc that will work with you instead of not listening like the pdoc you had.

The first pdoc I was with for any time, ended up dropping me because of OD'ing issues. The one I ended up with now was assigned to me at one of my hospital stays. The first time I talked with him, I really didn't think he was going to be ok.....for some reason we just didn't hit it off & I felt like we were going in different directions. I asked for a change, but the staff suggested that I sit down I discuss my issues with him. We talked it over, & settled things. I have been with him now for over 8 years & he is the greatest pdoc I could have ever ended up with. He is so knowledgable & does alot of research on top of his practice. He is into alternative methods of treatment & had tried many different treatments....one of them being light therapy (which didn't work either). He truly feels that I am the one that controls my condition & that therapy is about the best help of all because I have such a strong willed mind. He does provide the meds that I have found that work & listens to what I think is working & why & how much it takes to work & when. He is no longer in a state where he thinks I will be OD'ing any more, so is willing to provide me with samples, sometimes 3 months at a time when I am not having problems like I am now. He adjusts the appointment times depending on my psychological state.....when I am doing good, it's 3 months, but mostly it is every month. He doesn't hospitalize unless he feels it is absolutely necessary now. He listens to everything I have to say, even the things I & my psychologist are dealing with in therapy.

I am sure you will find that your new pdoc is much better than the one you have had.....a positive attitude & even open up about your feelings of being uneasy with the change will let him know how to work with you the best way possible. The more he knows about you, the better he will be able to treat you. Issues with meds, experiences & side effects you have experienced are all important for him to know. I know that I have bad reactions to all the psych meds except for a few....he knows & never pushes anything on me that I feel uncomfortable with. Sometimes I am willing to see if something new works & he listens to what my reactions are to the med & never forces me into anything I have problems with. I found from the rough start that being completely open with him really helped the Dr patient relationship & the respect we have for each other.

I am sure you didn't mess anything up......& am sure you will be much better off that with the pdoc you described that you had.

Debbie