Thread: Im so textbook
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Old Mar 29, 2006, 09:25 AM
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I had many psychologists before the one I have now. He was one who I could talk to more like a caring, understanding father which made the relationship very comfortable. When I was in the medical hospital for my massive weight loss (anorexia) last year, my GP had the hospitals psychologist come in to see me every day. He was great at asking questions & trying to get out what was going on & pointed out how much anger I was dealing with especially since I was dealing with my Mothers death that happened while I was in the hospital. I felt really comfortable talking with him too, but is was mostly answering his questions. I had never had a psychologist that used that method for therapy......mostly all the ones I had would just listen & say little things on & off. The psychologist I have now was having back problems & quit seeing patients except in his home about 2 hours away from where I live. I was frustrated because the one from the hospital wouldn't take me on as a patient outside of the hospital & couldn't find someone who was willing to deal with PTSD which the actual trauma was the cause of the anorexia.

I ended up going back to a lady psycologist who I had close to home. She was also a horse person who had belonged to the same dressage group as I had. She only took my medicare as 1/2 payment of her cost, so it was costing my quite a bit each month & I found that I was mostly chatting about my horses, dressage, & dealing with a new foal, which was an experience that we both had in common. She helped me through the initial issues & to validated the fact that what I actually went through was a trauma. It seemed like is more & more became a horse discussion session because she felt that is was good for me to have a break from the feelings I was experiencing. I got to the point where I felt that it was an expensive chat about horses & when my other psychologist was over his back operation, I ended up going back to him.

It is amazing because I seem to be much more able to open up even more with him & we do focus on the feelings from the trauma & my Mothers death that I am dealing with. Again, it still feels like I am talking with a kind, caring father. He is so understanding & sensitive & I feel like after being away from him for awhile, the therapy is working much better than it did before. I kinda feel like the odd ball in that my feelings for my psychologist are respect & a feeling of being with a caring father rather than the other type of attraction that others seem to feel. I am so glad to be back with him, & so glad that he is so understanding & provides guidance even more than it felt like before. Guess I am not a very good textbook patient. either with therapy or with my pdoc since I can't seem to take most of the meds that are supposed to work without horrible side effects.

With any of my previous make psychologists, I never ever had that attraction to any of them.....so I must be the real oddball & definitely not textbook anything.

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