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Hey guys,
Told my CPN everything was very hard but I managed it. He thinks I was delusional when I thought people were tampering with my meds. He has said I must take my meds... which I know but well I just don't like to take them. I have started taking them again as of yesterday. He wrote everything down I said and said he would give a copy to my Psychiatrist when he comes back off his holiday in 2 weeks time. I see Psych 30th September anyways. We spoke about why I don't want to take my meds and some of my fears are I do not believe I am Bipolar... he smiled when I said that and he nodded and said "well you know the answer is simple you are not Bipolar... you have Bipolar there is a difference". I told him I am still in denial I think. He said I need to majorly get into a routine/schedule and to maintain it. He says I keep doing self-destructive stuff and I am drawn into talking to guys online. When I spoke to him this time... I felt relieved as its been nigging at me constantly.
Today I feel lower but fine. Thanks guys for all the help and support. I truely mean it!
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